Hi.

This isn't a how-to. I'm not a pinterest mom. I'm a firm believer in faking it 'til you make it. This is for all the millennials out there who secretly have no idea what they're doing. I'm looking at you, millennial caregivers. 

The First Appointment

After 3 months of waiting for an appointment, we finally saw the doctor! She was great and it was well worth the wait. My mom really liked her. She said she felt very comfortable with her AND, when the doctor prescribed some mood stabilizers, my mom said she would think about it. I never thought that would happen. That doesn't mean that she'll ever agree, but the fact that she didn't say no is fantastic. We are going back in 2 months for a follow-up appointment. 

It's odd to me to go to a doctor and leave with no clear fix. Obviously there is no cure for this. I know this. It just feels weird to leave a medical facility knowing that this will just continue to progress and all we can do is try to make the rocky ride as smooth as possible. 

I think that's the hardest pill to swallow. There is no cure. 

I almost feel envious of the almighty cancers because, at the very best, the general population knows what cancer is. Nobody knows what HD is. I hadn't even heard of it before all of this. And, there are treatments for most cancers and fundraisers with thousands of participants! That sounds so absolutely awful to be jealous of another disease. Of course all disease is awful and I don't wish any illness on anyone. I just find myself getting disease envy sometimes. If a stranger looks at my mom, they won't see someone brave who is battling a fatal disease; they'll see a crazy person. I have to remind myself over and over again that this is a disease and she can't help it when she stumbles down the street or forgets to brush her hair. 

Sigh. 

Between my mom's case worker and myself, we are busy trying to find a new place for my mom to live. We still have about a month, but with my mom's track record, I'm sure we'll be down to the last second. I mean, it wouldn't be exciting if we weren't rushing to get everything finished, right? :) 

She also has this new boyfriend who she's been seeing for a month. According to her, they are madly in love. She even mentioned moving in with him. Yes, after only a month. I told her that wasn't an option, so hopefully she listens. I can't even imagine this person. When I start to think about it, my head spins around and then pops off. I've decided not to think about this for now. 

That's all, folks. 


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